After Trump was elected, first there was shock by many in the nation and the world. Shock, shame, embarrassment, grief, anger, sadness, it goes on and on. I personally almost threw up as I watched the results. After all that, people started talking of resisting. Then people started getting organized. Then a previously unknown part of me woke up. Now I've been involved with community activism and protests in the past, but this was different. You know that feeling of fear you get at times when it comes to your purpose in life? You come up with excuses not to do it and such. Well, when that happens in relation to the Resistance, that fear quickly disappears. The excuses disappear. The truth is that I've never felt so ready for anything in my entire life. I've never felt so sure that resisting the onslaught Trump and his cronies will try to unleash is, at least, part of the reason why I'm on this planet.
I've actually had moments of feeling excited at the idea of being part of the Resistance. I've always known that I have a warrior side to me. I've been a soldier numerous times in past lives, and I'm so ready for this fight. I've never felt so accepting and willing to do such a difficult job. Events that have happened in the past and aspects of my personality are making more sense in light of this change. For years I've wondered what else is in store but could never get answers. Now that a slumbering part of me has awakened, I see why. As shock, embarrassment, grief began to wear off, I just felt more and more ready to resist. I've been looking for so many resources on how to resist effectively, groups to join, groups to financially support, info to share, etc. My readiness is sliding into a passion. This is all so strange in a way.
I don't want to have to fight. What I want is a quiet, peaceful life, a nice house, a garden, and two cats. I guess it feels strange because I never thought I would have to do this. Battles that were fought and won years ago now require a new guard. My mother hasn't taken it well. She grew up during the Civil Rights Era and feels like the nation has regressed. I think it deeply troubles her. I know it saddens me. The very idea of Nazis in the White House is simply absolutely repugnant! People tell me I need to be tolerant. I don't tolerate hate in any form. I refuse to tolerate hate. I refuse to tolerate discrimination. The idea that I should "give him a chance" is simply idiotic to me. I see him for what he truly is. I feel what he truly is.
Too bad everyone isn't an empath and those that are and didn't notice how wrong he is, all I can say is that those people aren't sensitive enough and are in desperate need of an upgrade. But not counting the psychic warnings I've gotten, logic comes into play. When I observe him, read what he writes, listen to him speak, I know he has a psychological disorder called Narcissism. But don't take my word for it, research the disorder. I grew up with this nonsense because I had to deal with it from a relative. It made it easy for me to notice it in him.
Those who are truly narcissistic don't care about anyone but themselves. Trump doesn't care about you, but he is a master at pretending that he does. They are masters at charming you. They are also excellent at gas lighting you. Psychologically, they are fragile. Fragile like fine china tea cups or very thin glass. They are vindictive and when they're like that, they are especially dangerous. They will literally put your life at true risk and not blink an eye. Cold, calculating, and never to be trusted. I'm sure there are those who don't want to read this, but like I said, don't take my word for it. Watch him closely. Listen what he says and doesn't say. Watch your back because he will surely put a knife in it.
Clearly I'm drifting in this blog. I have a lot on my mind and I'm trying to sort it out. I know there are others having this most curious experience. Life was going on just fine and then they were activated like a sleeper cell is activated. There's still much to learn, and I think the farther along the path I go, the more that will be revealed.
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