Even though I know it seems off, the title rather fits me today. For as long as I can remember I have been extremely interested in ancient cultures and religion. It wasn't until this summer that my research took me to places I never thought it would before.
It all started with such a funny question, one I didn't think would take me this far. I noticed that bees had been acting strangely and that many animals migratory patterns had changed. Curiosity got the better of me and I began to theorize on possible reasons this would happen.
This led me to look into any changes that had occurred on Earth in the past 10 years. Needless to say, that was just the tip of the iceberg. It didn't take very long for me to piece together what looked like the beginnings of a pole shift. This led me to theorize on the catalyst that triggered the shift. I began digging into history trying to find bits and pieces that seemed to lead me deeper and deeper into this mystery that seemed to be unraveling like knots in string. I can honestly say I've learned more in the past six months than in this entire lifetime . As I went from topic to topic I started to begin to piece together how it all fit in my life and it was shocking.
A world that had already seemed confusing and distant to me showed itself in a completely new light as I began recognizing all the lies. I am sure you know of them so I will not linger too long on the subject. I became irritated when people would insult others with useless insults aimed toward the targets physical manifestation. I grew weary of listening to people's misguided beliefs on their "wants" and "needs". In a sense, I became jaded.
I realized we are all connected to each other and even to the stars and planets. It is so subtle you can overlook it if you aren't paying attention (as I had for a long time). Once I learned about my connections it only took me deeper into my research. During September it came to a sudden halt around the time the planets went direct, now that I think about it. It gave me a moment to stop my head from reeling...To catch my breath.
Two days ago, I was called again. I don't recall exactly what drew me back to the research but somehow I knew there was something there waiting for me to find it. Instead of learning of the stars and the histories, it seems it was time for me to finish my circle. Last night I was brought back to the now. I learned of a lot of the horrors that are happening right before our very eyes. My view of the now had been vague and elusive, almost like a dream I was floating through. Another veil was lifted and the clouds parted. My first response was one of such immense sadness just to think about it now is bringing tears to my eyes. My second was fear and I had an intense inner conflict. There was a part of me that knew that there was nothing to be afraid of, that its temporal (best way I can explain it at the moment). Still I felt myself drowning in this reality, our reality. It was suffocating my light and I felt like a fire was going to be put out.
And then I got the call again. The call to come here and look. The very first channel I read felt as if a salve had been put over this wound. I am still reeling and I still feel that deep pain in my heart but it is not as powerful as it was only hours ago. I have never posted on this site before, I prefer to remain a silent watcher normally. I hope this will act as a good introduction. I think this will be the last time I will be called to look to the past. It was all started to learn about the birds and the bees. I finally got my answer last night. I can confidently say that I shifting into the now and it is due to all your wonderful though unconscious support.
I hope you read this, whoever does read this. If you found it the words are meant for you. Truth has many guises and can even be found in a blowing breeze if you look hard enough.
I don't know what is next for me. In fact I'm more lost now than ever but I am content. And every night I will look up at the stars and think of you, whoever you are. I will prayer that you can find your truth and your strength.
And as I whisper it to the cosmos I know you will listen.
Itamari
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