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Today during my meditation I had Jeshua ben Joshep visiting me. Let me tell you, it was quite a glow around him. He stood in my bedroom near the window. I felt very calm when he was here. He smiled lovingly at me and came slowly towards me. When he was next to the bed he kept on looking lovingly at me with a smile and I felt warm inside, safe and secure! He putted his hands on my forehead...I closed my eyes and I could feel that all old memories was drawn upp to the surface. Horrible memories, lots of pain.This is because it is very important for me to remember and it is about time for me to let this horrible memories out to the surface to bee able to heal properly. I refused to face this horrible memories last year when I saw my own brutal bloody death when i was a paschat. It was then i refused to face this horrible memories from the past until my twin flame was here with me. Anyways...

 The first memory i saw in form of a vision is Jeshua carrying that heavy cross, covered and soaked in sweat. It was hot that day! I had a stone chalice in my hand with water! I was on my way to give him a sip so he would not become dehydrated. But before I even reached Jeshua to give him a sip of water I was trowed at the side by one of the soldiers and he yelled at me that that this criminal do not need a sip of water, that I should stay away from him. I spilled more than half of the water i had in the chalice when he threw me to the side....then it got black and a new memory showed itself inform of a vision..

 I saw Jeshua up in the cross, his agony, his pain from all those wounds...his scream of agony and the facial expression of agony and pain on his face...I just could not take it no more. I stopped the meditation and was filled with horror and emotions...But it did not end there. When I was sitting on my bed trying to get my breath of that last memory of Jeshua screaming loud of pain and agony...i saw in a flash, yet another memory!

 I stood little on the left side in front of Jeshua´s cross and I wanted to get him off from that horrible cross more than anything! But I could not do anything, Judas and I felt completely HELPLESS. Judas got frustrated over it, that he could not do anything, to get Jeshua off from that cross no matter how much he wanted to, that it became to much for poor Judas to handle, that he was forced to go somewhere else before he totally would burn a fuse and start to put on a show there, out of fury towards the soldiers, the illuminati, elite priests where he stood. So he left to go home and take a chalice of wine to try to calm himself down. I found Judas later in our house crying totaly devistated over to see his best friend on the cross...

 While Judas left to go home, I took the chalice with the little water that was left in it and I started to clean Jeshua´s wounds witch he had on his feet and legs,cause i could not reach any further than his feet and bellow his knees. When i was don, I looked at Jeshua...The darkness I felt around that area with all this poor brain washed people, was so evil and intense that no one can even imagine the evil i felt surrounded in that area. It was something I had not felt since aztec times when the illuminati priests sacrificed Viracho-Ka, Po-Ka (my brother), Viracho-Ka´s cousin and Viracho-Ka´s little brother, my husband and thousands and thousands more innocent natives. The evil I felt was beyond believe....

 After the last vision of memory i could not take it no more... I started crying of all the suffering and horror my precious friend Jeshua had to face back then.

 The chalice I had in my hand has never been found. This chalice is what the christians would call for the holy grail. The grail that they have on display in Rome is fake, not even from the time of Jeshua! You see I took the holy grail with me to india when we later on traveled to india to get out of that illuminati hell hole that Palestine was back then. Because I knew the dark once would use it as a trophy witch many evil criminals dos.

 The holy grail is well kept and stored by the white brotherhood. The very white brother hood that Akhenaton founded long time ago, the very same white brother hood that also fights secretly against the dark cabal, illuminati, elites and the dark once...