When it comes to endeavors I love, my behavior regarding them isn't what one would think it would be. I don't always engage. For example, I love knitting. One would think that since I love it, I would do it as often as possible. Nope. I can go months on end without picking up a needle. It's interesting to me because when I look back on my life, I've always been like that. I'm the same way when it comes to my purpose in life. Doreen Virtue says that the world needs us to perform our purpose. I'm over here like, meh. I guess I view such ideas as one having an over inflated sense of self importance. There are 7 billion of us, and the world isn't going to implode if one person doesn't perform their purpose. I guess she says it because if we all did this, the world could become a much better place more quickly. But lately I've found myself wondering if I should spend my time in this world helping.
People. I swear to all that's holy, they are working my last good nerve. Why common sense escapes many is just beyond me. People making the same damn stupid mistakes over and over and over again. I'm starting to wonder if most of the people in this world are worth helping. I'm losing hope. I'm losing faith in humanity. I know that I've barely begun and I'm thinking, why try? From what I've seen, it's like most don't want help and most don't want to save this planet that we need to exist. The strange need, it would seem, to destroy themselves and take others with them. It's unsettling, to say the least, and it's slow motion murder. They are steadily destroying, murdering, the world day and night and don't care. What's worse, they convince themselves that they aren't responsible for it. My brain just isn't designed to comprehend that kind of behavior and thinking.
It just goes on and on and often, I find myself hoping that I'll never reincarnate on this world again. I just can't deal with this level of stupidity and insanity. I just can't. Years ago I had nightmares that nearly everyone had been turned into zombies and there were only a few of us left to fight back. I feel like I'm in that nightmare! My disappointment has actually moved me to tears and that's not like me! I need off this rock. I try to focus on the positive, then I see some bullshit move some politician made and I'm just so done. So I'm like, why try? I swear to god, I care too damn much. If I didn't care so much, I wouldn't be bothered. I should just stop caring, hell, why not? No one else seems to.
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Hello dear Nancy, You spoke personally with politicians? you have talked to the principal authors of the public forces? If you spoke with them you know what they are and that can have honesty.
you know well that eliminated are the best people.......
brave people are annoying, so I deleted deleted......
where it is..... GOD ????
I find that having 7 billion people on the planet takes the pressure off. It is sort of comforting if you think about it. . And also being on purpose is not grandious either which i think a lot of people think it has to be.....You don't have to bear the brunt of the world, but what you can do is get with organizations that are like minded with you to do activist work. People especially people in developed countries in the daily mix of their lives are somewhat lazy. People need to be educated and how things are run will change. For example I live in a big house with lots of people, but people don't always recycle, because they are lazy (or busy or whatever the excuse) to go over to the recycling center and recycle. We put up a sign that says people need to take recyclables to recycling.
humanity has it pluses and of course it's minuses, which we know. You might need to take a break from what you are doing and focus on yourself. You also might need a win of some sort.