Right now tears are pouring down from my eyes! This morning when I was going to eat my breakfast flashes from distant past came.
I was out walking that day with my husband, my university crush. This time Zian did not take his fake legs on! He used this legs very rarely cause he simplty was to used to have his arms as legs. Even if Zian was a cripplet I loved him from the bottom of my heart and soul! He was a wonderfull loving husband. Had good sence of humor and could truly make me laugh! We where out walking that day when 4 men came towards uss! One of them started to irritate Zhian with harrasing me! The man took a firm gripp on me from behind and started to squeeze my breasts! I started to feel uncomfortable and descusted at that man and tryed to get loose from his gripp! Zian got irritated and shouted " Leave my wife a lone you PERVERT!!!!!
The man that had a firm gripp on me from behind then ordered his friends to kill Zian! He said " Kill that freak!" with a descust in his voince! The 3 friends of his started ti kick Zian and their target was his head! They where laughing and giggling like it was the most fun sport ever. To kick a healpless cripplets head. I was forced to watch this. I was forced to see my beloved husbad get killed by this assholes. This illuminati, Elit followers. Zian died of severe head injuries because of the voilant and brutal kickings on his head...
When Zian was unconcious they stoped and the man who had hold a firm gripp on me let me go! I ran stright to Zian. I putted my arm under zians neck so his head could rest on my arm while the other arm was aound his chest and I was crying! I could hear the men giggle and laughing when they were walking away, like it had been the most exciting and the must fun day in all theyr lifes! Zian died in my arms shortly after that. When Zian died in my arms I started to scream out of pain and hysterically cry..the pain in my cryes could bee heard meny blocks away, I am sure! When I lost my husband that day...when he got brutaly killed....
They killed my husband for no parent reson! Zian had never and did never ever do enyone eny harm! He was a wonderfull human beeing a wonderfull soul! Yet this bastards killed him! Why?!!! WHY!!!? Because he was different from the rest, he was a cripplet. Plus he was not a Atlantian, he was an Asian from Mu!!!!
It is hearbraking to remember this! But the long hidden pains has to get out for my soul to bee detoxicated completely! No mather how horrible and painfull some memories are from my past reincarnations...
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Love and Light!
The purpose of sadness & fear is to express the loss of Love
The purpose of Love, is to remove sadness/fear and replace it with Light
May Love & Enlightenment reach us All╭♥╯
Past memories can be transformed by healing things in the now.
For example; send love to your quarrelling neighbours, save a housefly out of the water, repair a tree, etc..
Just do something good in your direct environment, and in a miraculous way your past restores.
The outer world is the history.
The inner world is the now.
The thoughts are the future.
I hope this is helpful.
In Service and Love
I have to remember to sing happy birthday to him, 21st of November on his birthday! He was born 21st November 1692. :) I remember on my birtday, in the morning when he sang happy birthday to me! He woke me upp with a happy birtday song! Man, what a heavenly manly VOICE he had when he was singing! I had NO IDEA he could sing that good! :D
Feather Winger: Xzai-On has had almost 320 years to release this horrible pain and memories! But of cause in some sense you are right! Xzai-On do not like to see me in pain or even to cry and if he feels my suffering and pain he gets of cause sad! So in a sense you are right...I need to face this memories to detoxicate my soul from all this horrible pain and memories from the past..so that my soul can finaly bee at peace and bee happy! When I am happy my wtinflame will bee happy! The best thing he knows is when I giggle and laugh! Meny times he has said " GOD I love your GIGGLING!" *Giggles* :D
Frenzy44: We have been fighting the cabal in ages and ages ever since we came here 200000 years ago! Try to help people realice who this people are. We have tryed to stop the tyrrany, the suffering and tryed to help people begome more spiritual, and try to make them realice that what this cabal, illuminati,elit are and how they work! It has been a long ride! Our mission is simply to create a heaven on earth, gods ultimate wish for all of his children... Because of that we have reincarnated over and over here to fullfill gods highest wish, a heaven on earth for all his children...and till that day comes we will continue our fight and so we have in decades and decades since our first arrival...One of my missions today is to tell you all about the past and to give you the truth! And not the bullshit that the cabal scientists, archeologigs ets wants us to believe...The illuminati is the oldest trubblemakers around, they have been among uss in ages..
i like to read your stories
it seems for some these spontaneous recollections do occur
for me too !
i trust you experience these rather horendous visions as a discharge/relaease from ancient pains
i have met people who atttach them selves again to the pain and these people have had a bad mad time of things
keep in mind we have all had so many lives that we have all lived lives as both perpetrators and victims of all things
for myself i am focussed on remembering joyful powerful lives....and also reconfiguring /reconstructing past memories
enjoy
loved