Hooowee....

I be tired.

Um...

Lessee.

I laid down, and I sat there, falling through as is to say, and I was standing in my garden.  It was somewhere around duskish, maybe a little into the night maybe.  Shadow self me wanted to play, he kept trying to attack me, and I eventually fought him, and tried to chain him to the beach while I went for a swim, but no he got bigger and bigger, like the LAST frikin' time.  I hovered out over the sea, watching him get to towering size, and I saw Anush dragon-like  in the corner of my eye and thought "No, not right now I want to see if I can kill this motherfucker."

He stormed out to see coming after me, I had already tried to bury him by collapsing the earth around him but he simply got bigger and climbed out of the stupid hole.  I rose up into the air, when I thought I wonder if I should cut off the source, that is feeding his growth?  and had an idea.  Obviously he survives on the energy given off by aberrant parts of me so I thought to get to the heart of the issue... as it were.

I rose up further, taunting him to get bigger and bigger, till his hand was wayyyy bigger than me.  Then, I fell back to earth and splashed into the water, then forced myself through the skin of his foot into one of his veins.  I climbed up his circulatory system, and as I got closer to the heart I thought "As I get closer to the heart I should change myself accordingly, my vibrations and such."  When I finally hit it I was in a dark place.

This dark place I'd seen before- it's the inner world of the shadow self.  As I stood there there came this multitude of voices that were making all sorts of taunts meant to scare me, intimidate me, make me halt, etc etc, and I thought... I could charge through the crowd and run away... or I could deal with each one one by one, which is harder because I have to contend with all the voices... I reached out and grabbed on of them.  It was a man, saying that Anush was far more important than I was.  I responded that we were equally important, and equally less important, that the concept of importance really doesn't exist as all is important.  The man questioned how I believe this, and walked away.

They next was this wraith lady (I remember seeing Anush again), that was really weird.  I think she was trying to make me feel guilty about the transvestite thing.  I kept brushing it off, saying it was simply a learning thing, nothing more.  She got bigger, and started fighting me.  At one point, she split right down the middle.  My two halves fell apart, then went through these tunnels separately, then came back together again.  When that happened, I felt the energy of the two sides mix, and I started getting all this extra energy.  My body here started aching a little bit.

I started making these incredible moves, and I noticed after a while I was wearing this golden suit of armor (that looked sort of similar to the Yugioh card Lord of D.) and I remember finishing the creature off by making this big huge sword of gold and light that was like 100 x bigger than me and plunging straight into the creature.

Then I emerged from that world.  I dropped onto the grass, and saw Shadow self next to me.  I told him to bug off, and he actually did.

I don't know how the transition worked, but somehow I wound up riding Anush again.  I was dead tired after mixing the two halves of my energies.  I held on and actually tried to look up into space.  I slipped off, and I was looking around at the big empty space when I saw Anush make this huge blast of pink energy at me.  Right before it hit me, I made a shield against it, using the energy of my two halves.  I must have held it for 30 seconds or something before it she stopped.  This made me even more tired.

One of the things I noticed by the way when I mixed the energy of my two halves is that my hands would go "out of phase" - it would feel like my hands were being tilted in a certain direction, like I was trying to twist out of my body.

After that she hit me which caused me to go crashing down onto some planet's surface.  It was the place with the town, that I saw earlier.  I laid there, and someone came out over to me.  I saw them, they looked at me and I said Who are you?  and she said Well first who are you?  I realized I still had the golden armor on, it seemed to magically appear on me anytime I mixed my two halves.  She asked if I was a Shaman, and I said... well, I dunno.  She seemed apprehensive, but she picked me up and took me into the town.  I fell asleep.

I woke up again in the person's house, she had a bowl of what looked like chicken soup, and I ate a few spoonfuls of it before Anna came in and kissed me and asked how I was doing.  I responded of course that I was dead tired, and I think I found a part of myself.  I ate a few more spoonfuls, and played around with my energy, sending it through my body.  I noticed that it was hard to send it through the right knee.  I asked the host if there was a healer around here, and she led me out to the street, and said around the corner that way to the left.

I knocked on the door adn a lady (who looked fishily familiar) greeted me, kissed me on the nose and said for me to come on in.  I sat on a cot, and she asked what's been going on.  I told her I needed her to look at my knee.  She said she would do it for 10 dimes, I gave her ten dimes(wondering why the heck she'd need ten dimes) and laid down on the cot.

I told her that I thought it was soemthing from a car accident a while back, like a cyst or something, and she held up this mousey-electronic looking thing and said "I don't think this is a car accident."  Apparently it was in my knee.  She told me to go to sleep, and she'd fix me up.  Strangely, I did actually go to sleep this time instead of just up there.

And that's the end.